March 10, 2010 - Refuge & Jeremiah 29:11

I felt like I was going crazy last night and went outside for some fresh air around midnight. Jesus brought a song to mind that I've really loved for a long time, and I wanted to share the lyrics with you:

I take my refuge in the palm of Your hand

I take my comfort in Your perfect plan

I take my sorrow and lay it down at Your feet

I take my refuge where I can be free

I take my shelter in the shade of Your wings

I take my pleasure in the hope that You bring

I take my weakness to the foot of the cross

I take my refuge where I can get lost

In You, Oh Lord, In You, my God

When there's nowhere to turn

And there's nothing that's true

I find my peace here in You

(My Refuge, Sonic Flood)

Right now I don't know if one bit of this song can be said truly about my spiritual walk. It's all stuff that I know is true in my head, but I have a really, really hard time knowing it's true in my heart.

When I posted yesterday, I was writing in desperation. Please forgive me for that desperation, and know that I've asked God to forgive me too.

Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Sometimes I don't believe a word of it. But it's all true. And I need to believe it - I want to believe it.

-Greg