My 5 Years of Grief

sorrow

despair

a shattering

lower than seemingly possible

i fell into the pit

that death left behind

far longer than expected

far longer than predicted

i was tossed by an unrelenting storm

until bit by bit, day by day, year by year

it calmed

destruction, everywhere

nothing left standing

just me

held tightly in God's strong hand

clearing away the rubble

saying goodbye to what will never be again

making room for life to grow

a different life than was

or will ever be

again

still here

still sad

still me

but changed

learning every day

to keep going

to surrender to change

to allow life to unfold the way God sees fit

trusting that i'm still

(and ever will be)

held in His hand