Today marks the start of my 4th year of widowhood. Last night it hit me hard that these markers of time don't mean an end. Surviving year one ushered me into year two. Getting through year two led to new challenges in year three. And now year four stretches before me.
I had a moment of panic over the permanence of life without Greg and then I remembered that the only way to get through year four is to lean on what got me through each year before:
Taking it one day at a time
Trusting God will give me what I need to get through the day
Doing just the next thing
Not letting myself think too far into the future
From the vantage point of today I can look back and see that there was not a day terrible enough for God to not carry me through. Oh there have been dark, terrible and nearly unsurvivable days. But here I am, by God's grace.
He hasn't failed me yet. He won't fail me now.
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." - Hebrews 13:8